Just like rain when it falls,

I cried my heart out.

Just like wind passes by,

You came and dried my tears. 

And just like storm,

You went away without any warning. 

The clock stared from afar, watching how broken I am.

I wished for a very simple thing to God, universe, or whatever you want to call it. 

I just wanted to be rain. 

I just wanted to be wind. 

I just wanted to be with you. 

Is it wrong for me to wish for such things? 

Or the universe just feel tired because I keep on wishing for the same thing? 

The clock sighed and began to talk, "O' poor child, you are trapped."

I stared at the clock wondering what was the meaning behind his words.

"You are trapped in your own delusion. You are rain, child. You are wind. He is storm, he went away from you too fast, but he is with you. You still can feel his breath inside your veins. His heartbeat, his eyes, his voice, all of them live within your very own body." He said.

But I don't feel anything! Neither his breath nor his voice!

"O' poor child, you are wrong. Take a look at the sky."

I stared at the sky and saw nothing but white clouds.

I felt disappointed. 

Why did I listen to the clock anyway? 

But somehow... 

I felt something... different. 

What is it?

What is the thing that I've been searching all this time? 

Why do I always feel incomplete? 

Like a big part of me disappeared ruthlessly. 

Is it you? 

Is it your voice? 

Is it your soul? 

I don't know... 

The clock sighed again, "What you've been searching for is right beside you all this time."

No!

He's not here! 

He went away! Like a storm! Crushing my body into shreds! 

Why... am I alone?

Why... did you leave me? 

I just wanted to be rain...

I just wanted to be wind... 

So I can be with you. 

So I can be a part of you. 

So that when you disappear, I will disappear with you. 

The clock looked at me with tears dropped from his eyes.

"My poor child, let him go. I will help you. You don't have to search for him anymore. He is there, with you. He is there, inside your heart."

No!

The clock is a liar. 

I don't have anything inside me.

I am an infinite darkness.

Empty. 

Hollow. 

Cold. 

Lonely. 

I lost my light and I'm trapped inside this unbearable darkness. 

I want to disappear. 

The clock stared at me with a very sad eyes and said, "Then, I will let you go, child. If your soul already feel tired from this darkness, I will break you free. I will stop your time."

I finally smiled at the clock.

He finally understood what I want. 

Please, let me see you again.

Let me be with you. 

Forever, away from this thick darkness inside me. 

The clock stopped itself and began to crumble.

What's happening?

"O' poor child, when your time stops, I will disappear along with you. I am your time. If you live, I live. And if you die, I die." He said.

The clock gave me a tiny sad smile and disappeared in front of my eyes.

I didn't even say goodbye. 

Or thank you. 

My body started to disappear just like the clock.

Suddenly, something inside my heart began to stir. 

I felt something... warm. 

Tears immediately flowed from my eyes. 

I feel you. 

You were here. 

All this time. 

With me. 

You were within my reach. 

And yet, I chose to give up. 

When my body almost completely disappeared, I screamed my lungs out,

I'm sorry!!

Slowly, clear droplets began to fall from the sky.

The dark clouds appeared. 

The wind blew. 

Storm was coming.