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And she understands it now
She feels like she's walking in an endless desert
Lost and confused
Broken and hurt
Pained and tired
Why does she have to keep on walking?
She feels so tired
Like every bone in her body screams at her to stop
Yet her feet keep moving aimlessly
Just moving
Walking
And walking
Until her breath gets heavier
Her strength gets even weaker
Where does she go now?
Is there even any place for her wounded feet to rest?
Does she even deserve to rest?
Can she even stop walking?
She doesn't know
All she know is
She wants everything to stop
She wants the desert to disappear
She needs the ocean
No matter how far
But the ocean is just a mere illusion
An unreachable dream
A mirage
A utopia
And she knows it better than anyone
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Wake up in Tokyo, feel like a torso
I know it's time to go
I see Pinocchio wearing a poncho
That's me some time ago
I know it's time to go
I see Pinocchio wearing a poncho
That's me some time ago
Do I miss myself?
Do I miss your face?
I don't know (I don't know)
I don't know (I don't know)
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Do I miss your face?
I don't know (I don't know)
I don't know (I don't know)
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Life is a word that sometimes you cannot say
And ash is a thing that someday we all should be
When tomorrow comes
How different it's gonna be?
Why do love and hate sound just the same to me?
And ash is a thing that someday we all should be
When tomorrow comes
How different it's gonna be?
Why do love and hate sound just the same to me?
I can't sleep
Homesick
But I just wanna
Stay right next to you
If I could choose my dream
I just wanna
Stay right next to you
Homesick
But I just wanna
Stay right next to you
If I could choose my dream
I just wanna
Stay right next to you
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
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The whole world is spinning, but I'm just stuck in my place.
I feel like I'm not touching the ground when I stand.
I feel like I can't reach anything when I stretch out my hand.
I feel like I'm crying but no tears come out.
I feel like I'm screaming but no sound escapes from my mouth.
I feel like I can't breathe.
I feel like I can't feel anything.
I feel like I can't even live.
I'm tired.
Tired of my own thoughts.
Tired of my own behaviors.
Tired of my own demons.
Tired of being me.
I just want me to stop.
Stop thinking.
Stop doing anything.
Stop feeding the demon's ego.
Stop being me.
Maybe also,
Stop breathing.
Stop living.
Stop existing.
I just want everything to stop.
I truly do.
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When I realized, I was back at the same scene, standing alone
The white butterflies were still flying
The trees were still dying
And the leaves were still falling
The white butterflies were still flying
The trees were still dying
And the leaves were still falling
I was smiling, but my tears wouldn't stop pouring
Because the pain I felt was unbearable
Because the pain I felt was unbearable
Since my wounds were bleeding
Nothing came out of my mouth even though I wanted to scream
I stared at the camera, pleading for forgiveness
I wanted all of this to stop
I wanted to crush the camera, or rip the films apart
But yet again, I was just standing there
Unable to move, unable to talk
I stared at the camera, pleading for forgiveness
I wanted all of this to stop
I wanted to crush the camera, or rip the films apart
But yet again, I was just standing there
Unable to move, unable to talk
I started to doubt everything
My smile, my tears, my wounds
On the other side of the lens, were you even there?
Was this pain even real?
Did I even exist?
My smile, my tears, my wounds
On the other side of the lens, were you even there?
Was this pain even real?
Did I even exist?
Questions started to jumbled up inside my head
One by one, piling into a mountain
I looked around desperately, searching for an answer
But the answer was nowhere to be found
One by one, piling into a mountain
I looked around desperately, searching for an answer
But the answer was nowhere to be found
My smile started to fade, and left me nothing but agony
My tears and blood were dropping from my body like raindrops
It created a small pond, and I could see my own reflection there
My tears and blood were dropping from my body like raindrops
It created a small pond, and I could see my own reflection there
But then, I stopped breathing for a few moments
What I saw on the surface of the pond was not me
It was you
You were smiling
Just smiling
You didn't cry, nor bleed
Just smiling
You didn't cry, nor bleed
You were standing with butterflies flying around you
And the shady trees behind you were showing off their green leaves proudly
And the shady trees behind you were showing off their green leaves proudly
I felt a little bit scared, but I reached out my hand to you
Suddenly, my tears stopped falling
My wounds stopped bleeding
And smile returned to my weary face
My wounds stopped bleeding
And smile returned to my weary face
I closed my eyes and let myself felt my surrounding
Through the breeze, through the sunlight
I could feel your coldness and your warmth
Through the breeze, through the sunlight
I could feel your coldness and your warmth
Did our hands ever touch?
I didn't know
It didn't matter anymore
I didn't know
It didn't matter anymore
Because I realized
'You and I' was never existed
'You and I' was never existed
It was 'us' since the very beginning
You are me, and I am you
All the answers I'd been searching for, lies within you
Within me
You are me, and I am you
All the answers I'd been searching for, lies within you
Within me
Slowly, I opened my eyes
In front of me, the butterflies were flying
I could see the shady trees with green leaves
In front of me, the butterflies were flying
I could see the shady trees with green leaves
My smile, which once was faded, finally returned to me
My tears finally stopped
And my wounds finally healed
My tears finally stopped
And my wounds finally healed
I left the scene quietly
And started to walk
And started to walk
