Source: photographymag

When I realized, I was back at the same scene, standing alone
The white butterflies were still flying
The trees were still dying
And the leaves were still falling

I was smiling, but my tears wouldn't stop pouring
Because the pain I felt was unbearable

Since my wounds were bleeding

Nothing came out of my mouth even though I wanted to scream
I stared at the camera, pleading for forgiveness
I wanted all of this to stop
I wanted to crush the camera, or rip the films apart
But yet again, I was just standing there
Unable to move, unable to talk

I started to doubt everything
My smile, my tears, my wounds
On the other side of the lens, were you even there?
Was this pain even real?
Did I even exist?

Questions started to jumbled up inside my head
One by one, piling into a mountain
I looked around desperately, searching for an answer
But the answer was nowhere to be found

My smile started to fade, and left me nothing but agony
My tears and blood were dropping from my body like raindrops
It created a small pond, and I could see my own reflection there

But then, I stopped breathing for a few moments

What I saw on the surface of the pond was not me

It was you

You were smiling
Just smiling
You didn't cry, nor bleed

You were standing with butterflies flying around you
And the shady trees behind you were showing off their green leaves proudly

I felt a little bit scared, but I reached out my hand to you

Suddenly, my tears stopped falling
My wounds stopped bleeding
And smile returned to my weary face

I closed my eyes and let myself felt my surrounding
Through the breeze, through the sunlight
I could feel your coldness and your warmth

Did our hands ever touch?
I didn't know
It didn't matter anymore

Because I realized
'You and I' was never existed

It was 'us' since the very beginning
You are me, and I am you
All the answers I'd been searching for, lies within you
Within me

Slowly, I opened my eyes
In front of me, the butterflies were flying
I could see the shady trees with green leaves

My smile, which once was faded, finally returned to me
My tears finally stopped
And my wounds finally healed

I left the scene quietly
And started to walk